What 's up with life yo??????????

Dad just finish court case...hopefully we can MAke IT out oF Hell..As Usually my FinANciAl probleM !!!HAizzz!!TEst And Test..EHHHH ...very Stresss Eh,,,Lots oF KIasu Lang eh...my Stepmum buying me Face mask!!!whOle setTTTT!!!Anyway she JUst bought an apartment IN China.....HOpefully She got bring back lots of Mushrooms!!!!!!!!!plus WINe!!!red WINE!!!somehow i realise a got very dark skiN ehhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! i Felt That as IF I look very DaMn Dark..HAte that Feeling!!!

BANg..bang..bang

we taLK ...we Sort it oUT...i ThouGHT is goNNA be oKEy...SHe still BAng thE dooR!!!!!!!!!!Am i Really that bad???I aM tired to BE good And tired To sTarT a War...I pray hard..my leg anD my hEart shivERs....JesuS tell me....PUT my ear to deaf...PLease!!!!!!!!!

New hEart attacKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Diagnose ME noW!!

well oBviously i Cried yesterday ...thought Things goNNa be okey...i felt so...BUt no...noiSe and BanginNg ...AnD i was awake...Felt Like i got SeveraL heart aTTacks..THen I sleep Again...i dont Really cAre by Then...Morning Again Was Another Heart AttAAckkkkkkkk...WAs not From G but My someone...thaT i Care and The one I still cant Let go....HE writtEn a Post'I miss Her"...obviously ...He gt himSelf A new Chick alreadY.....HAizzz...Tearing Me aPart..ANyway ...i already kNew we canT be together beCAuse oF Distance...i sHould let HIM go...But it will Take some Time which I beliEve to be sooner or Later....

MOving In as If i am 19 feet in Hell drowninG for notHIng

Well ...i move into a nice house but it's kinda messy lorr...thing goES sIMply wrong when i got accused oF throwing G's shoes cuZ i am a cleAn freak...AND i still strong say I didnt THRow her shoEs while clearing up..I just throw thing that S says wanna throw ..ANd clearly we never throw her shoes or EVEn seeN the shoes THAT she describe..ANd yet iT look like I am the one WHO still behind the BARS for that matter..for nothing.. leaving a BAD impression on her aboUT me...So i Figure out that we talK face to Face and clear Thing out...She was okey When we clarify thing And her mom was an awesome mom...hot mom and was a blessing for G to have such mom who cares Bout HEr...But seems to be ...shE is disatisfy after the FACE to face..i Understand The feeling of loosing the shoes...its not 10 bucks shoes ..that you can get in NIght Market ...I even told this incident to mY dad..He told me to tell and explain and always Never Try to bring in Trouble.s..Well After the Face to Face thing...I assume thing IS oKEY....RESULT: It wonT be okey that easy to HER...!! I knew thing aint good or so called 'okey' when S tell me she BANGs the door quite often when I came Back for my new semester...to me BANGing the damn Door is Anger!I dont know what to do ...i even told myself maybe S was wrong...maybe she not purposely bang the door..maybe she is hurrying to school...Result:i dont want face to face talk to HER...it just worsen thing up ...Just let time loosen the strings...i dont wanna get high blood pressure with my ECG reading which interprets i gonna have mycardial infarction..i TRY to leave it to JESUs..He told Be be patient!!!Guest its all my FAult!!i still will close my door silently...i have faith things gonna be alright...I dont ask for more but hopes that she will be fine and get her Temper over the Incident...She can BLAme me as long as SHE wants...She can even throW the temper on mE..oR tell everyonE that I am a stealer...She can announce IT to the WHole world...She can look down on mE...No matter HOw she's doing it to me.. i HAve principal of my LIFe...and I admit for Parts that i had done wrong.. and I duno how to make it UP...But time will tell me ways...AS lonely i am...I still HAve JESUS ...i dont hope for anything piece of Candy for my brave confession and my humble character...i stand for who I am ... i have been through A lot...leavING in hell ..Leaving In a place WHere I dont even know...THAnks to my JEsus and MR mike NG (father and mother of mine)... i will be strong...for G ...i know we are not that GREat right now...Forgive ME...i never force you...but let time do it..JEsus thanks for telling me what to do...patience....humble...