i no longer for who i am

i started off my day very blur with no purpose.I felt like a Robot doing things that i never comand myself to do.i read my Nursing reference book.my soul is so empty.i took the bible and read chapter Acts.Jesus taught me of the word trust,believes and faith.My spirit shatters.I am so low in spirit and my heart barely shout out loud to HIM.I dont know what was I doing..i Just hug my Bible ..holding and gripping my cross.my mind was blank.In the afternoon,my friend sent me an e-mail regarding test result.Iwas so scared and thats what haunt me for the ast few weeks.I always tell people I am in Here because Jesus had plan for me everything.He knows want i want and He wants me to be safe.And today i can even dare to plan to quit if i can pass my score for this test.Dad has been through tough times to put me here.Jesus as well.i am sorry to trouble everyone.Then i decided to go to universitty to collect my result and THE most suprising thing is 'IT IS NOT OUT YET'.and it really test my confidence towards HIM.I fail.i find my santuary in my room.i knelt down and pray..i cry but wast me at all..i realise i was no longer i am ..i change..