my meeting with him

I met Scott and i was really happy to meet him.we hang out together..we talk and do things that people do.believe me or not..i start to feel for him.before this it was just a game made for fun..dude not because i like white guys...but having Scott with me makes me feel so secure and made me a me that i never see before..i was so timid and small..i never talk..but i stare at him as if there is no tommorow..watching movies with him and he would had grab and hold my hand throughout the movies till i fall asleep...he would keep asking me whether he 's hair is still nice and soft ? he would just lie on me and watch his movies..champagne would be a must must when we meet...but the last meeting was quite vulnerable to me when he really open up to me..i still can see that he have feeling for the other girl..but she is attached.. but i couldnt do anything..maybe it is time for him to settle down ...no more game..but definately not with me...i know who am i ..and where i stand..letting go is the thing .i just want him to be happy..he deserves lots..i do like him...