OFFICIALLY SAYING THANK YOU TO MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS AND YOU HOT STRANGER!!!!!!!
1.my life is not dull. I have interesting and controversial family.Unique yet fun.They teach me about being angry,disappointment, happiness, fight like you are a bitch, settle things just like a man, shout it loud if you are dissatisfy, thank god for what ever we have on the table, good manners..especially my aunts..Hey everything is good.i have learn and i am still learning like a human being should.No matter how i felt disappointed with my biological mummy with her attitude (of course her lies and her act of dragging my dad to court) ..i still learn to forgive her and still learning to love what she had done for me.Every single time,i called my dad after his court case between my mum, i kept telling him to forgive whatever she had done because she still loves you very much and she could not let you go and of course this is the only weird way to have your attention.You might think she freaking crazy but that's her way..i am learning to forgive my estranged mother and stop backstabbing her.i admit that i had back stab her lots of time and it is wrong.i love you mummy and i am sorry.Jesus is great for He had made replacement in everything .I had lost you mummy and i got a cool mum from china!!!i got two mum.my biological mummy AMY ..she is a good cook and she is hot!!!she got freaking nice skin and body!!! My mum Chai hung (means Rainbow)..she hot hot and she is my great mummy!!!i love Jesus ...I love daddy...
2.FRiends..they made me learn ..at one sudden point i remember how i use to gossip about my friends in secondary school and involve myself to back stab people in INTERACT club with my president and everyone..hahaha..damn funny to think about the topic we had gossip about and freaking childish.i glad i am reflecting it because only now i realize people might get hurt for things that i have done .I remember how hypocrite i was but i remember how i manage to be in two different situation and turns up to be in two freaking team.i am stuck and i put fire on two places at same time.and as college and in University..i guess the habit is still there. there is a turning point that made all these changed..i admit frequently i had done this and i realize how many people had hurt with my dirty routine and how manipulative i can be and how many innocent soul i kill ..i am responsible for these change in these innocent souls no matter how i try to change me myself and stop my devil attitude...i realize that i have to put it down on GOD's hand to judge me and drown myself to death..and even death CANT change things that had happen..so i am learning because of these point and this moment..shall i will never forget who had push and provoke this turning point of me!!the message that i glance for 5 sec hit my senses..takes 5 sec to make thousand of changes..i realized is a turn..a turn of good..and i am sorry for everything that i have done..
3.i wanna change my life..tired.. tense..full of drama that i had made for myself..revenge after revenge..grudges on friends and family..i learn to let it go..and i hope everyone will bless my change!!!i am a human determined to change because i know there 's a good future that HE had offered!!i will want to change..no more the hypocrite MARIA nor the busybody MAria..or the Bitch MAria!!!i do not wanna involve myself in any way that i get into trouble and i want all my friend be HAPPY!!!!who ever tries to make your life a hell..show them you are better than them..do your way if you have the confident to do it!!you have my full support..i support you to have a better life!!!you all my family and my friends..
4.i hope to change!!!i want to change!!devil shall go off!!!i want to do crazy stuff and i wanna make life better!!!i love my life!!!i wanna to tell to my future generation my stories of how bad am I and how badly i wanna make changes!!
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